THE KID INSIDE

“WHAT IS TRUE ABOUT YOU TODAY THAT WOULD MAKE YOUR TEN YEAR OLD SELF CRY?”

My thoughts and reflection about the earlier meeting (March 27, 2018) as I go back home..


When I was a child, I used to play barbie dolls, action figure and stuff toy. I make their own clothes (Fun fact? First thing I made is undies. Yessss girl, panties!)

I used to sit in my room for hours by myself, just talking to them in a circle formation. Talking about what they want to wear and what they feel about it. Talking about my life and theirs (Kinda creepy no?! LOL) I didn’t want it to show with my parents so I played 2:00 am on wards. My [click to read] Vulnerable Hours. Not that I didn’t wanted to impress or show it to anyone in the family what I do (but, seriously my Mom did noticed) but for the sheer joy of it.


And then, I stopped. I didn’t recall  exactly the reason why or when..


Maybe we all have this moment when we loose touch with what we love as a child. Something to do with peer pressure of adolescence up to your career path after college.


It wasn’t until my mid 20’s that I love doing behind the scene stuff whether it’s in sales and marketing up to creative directing/designing. This may sound lame but if my ten year old self had asked my 27 year old self “Are you quitting?” and I replied “Because I’m not good enough.” or “Because nobody would believe in me.” or “Because I can’t make money of doing that.”

My ten year old version of my self would probably started crying, and I imagine her screaming “Mali ka, mali ka!” (You’re wrong, you’re wrong!)

Now, what are you passionate about? Artist or not; working 9-5 or 24/7. Took wins and L’s. Ask your self this question. Let that sink in.


Thank you for your time!

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